The present you has to be in your hands, Gummorning
We are all our own teacher in the school of Life
Don't fall for the threat with flowers on it
But always choosing silence?
Silence punishes the honest
Silence trains people to ignore you
Silence tries to postpone your peace
Trauma's game is to keep you living in past rooms
Don't watch the clock, do what it does. Keep going, go with time. Past doesn't exist except in your memory, Don't let it hurt your present.
Past is not a living thing - Sadhguru
You are bigger than your doubts, insecurities, fears, your yesterday.
You Own yourself. Your past doesn't own you. Your guilt doesn't own you. NO ONE OWNS YOU.
Sit with your feelings… but don’t build a house there. If you stay in past, all it does is quietly take away what you still have, i.e., your present.
Guilt can feel like responsibility, but after a point, it stops being useful and starts becoming punishment as it already is. What happened as part of your story, is not your identity. You are not meant to stay stuck in one chapter just because it was painful or imperfect. Also, constantly putting yourself down doesn’t make you more accountable it just makes it harder for you to become better.
If you are broken. It’s okay. That’s how the light comes in, allow it.
As Dr. Jehangir says, "Do not let the past blackmail your present to ruin a beautiful future. You’ve already paid enough for what’s gone. At some point, holding on stops being responsibility and starts becoming self-harm”
Bajrangbali is with you.
Have a gracious day ahead as we are under his warmth.
Z
Today is for me,
The Sunrise was not at 5:39 am
It was at 7:21 am
There is me who carries music with me, and lately it got Life.
Expression of Art happens only when the Art has life and it comes from heart, yes Art will save the world, so does you.
Your Art saved a life.
As I am in aww and joy, I will carry this.
It just didn't make me happy, it also made me emotional, as my eyes watered to my cheeks and I cant describe any more as I just want to keep it.
The physical pain one goes through this process is always ignored and only the output is glorified many a times. As I always feel devotion with this art form, I fold my hands and pray to god to multiply your blessings and make you one of his greatest child with abundance.
With lots of spiritual gratitude, prayers and warmth,
Thenkyouu
B
Learning starts when certainty ends
To the One who wears destruction not as anger, but as the courage to end what no longer deserves to live within us i.e., fear, weakness, doubts, guilt and misery.
And may He leave within us - a calm mind, a fearless soul, a stronger tomorrow,
and the strength to walk through life without bowing down to darkness pretending there is light.
As the moon He wears was once broken too, yet it still stands and shines and never pretends.
IN HIM WE BELIEVE
as Jambavan reminded him:
“You are not the regrets of your past.
You are the strength that still exists beyond them.”
Milestones need not be loud, they can be quite too as you paint your own canvas of life
You can be the King Kong bangin' on your chest
You can beat the world, you can win the war
You can talk to God, go banging on his door
You can throw your hands up, you can beat the clock
You can move a mountain, you can break rocks
Some will call that practice, some will call that luck
But either way you're going to the history books
And the world's gonna know your name
'Cause you burn with the brightest flame
And the world's gonna know your name
And you'll be on the walls of the Hall of Fame
Be politicians, be preachers, yeah (yeah)
Be believers, be leaders
Be astronauts, be champions
Be truth seekers
Be students, be teachers
Be politicians, be preachers, yeah (yeah)
Be believers, be leaders
Be astronauts, be champions
And the world's gonna know your name"
We become what we believe, and in him we believe
Today
Where Silence Started Breathing...
Dear Me
Zomraday!
It was around 3:30 pm at office and feeling very less anxious after a busy day (making up for the last friday leave meetings)
Was smiling for no reason and suddenly this song popped in my mind.
The kind that comes when your heart feels safe, full, and quietly happy.
Past Baggage, Future Doubts
A one liner which which hits hard is -
Crying is Not a weakness, its metabolism. The body processing what the mind has been carrying alone
Most of our questions intersect with -
Everything is hard (== self - prejudice)
will any of this work (== self - doubt)
Can I even keep doing this (== self - destruction starts here)
What if I am already too late? (== quietly fear tripping)
It will never happen. (== giving up)
What if I can do? (== quiet and soft steps in light)
Things work out best for those who make the best of how things work out.
Not every cage has iron bars as a prison. Some are made of self-doubt, grief, and fear. The hardest part is not escaping them but realizing you deserved the LIFE all along. YOUR LIFE
Most sustainable version for anyone is to feel safe at any cost, any cost.
Somewhere off all the fear, exhaustion, and unfinished stories,
there is still a version of us
trying gently to believe
that peace is possible
Hold that version of you carefully
They are the one leading you home
Tomorrow is a blank page, that fear keeps trying to write before you arrive there.
Breath!
Hold!
Smile!
నవ్వితే ఏం అవుద్ది…
కొన్ని గాయాలు కనీసం, ఒక్క క్షణమైనా నొప్పి మర్చిపోతాయి
Have a blessed Bajrangabali Day!
Let me tell a Kutti Story
A little bird lived in a cage with a broken door.
For a long time, it never tried to leave.
Not because it loved the cage, but because it had forgotten the sky.
One day, it stood near the door.
The next day, it placed one foot outside.
Then another.
It did not fly immediately.
But slowly, the bird realized, it does not always begin with flying but it begins with the courage to take one small step out.
And many a times, healing is exactly that.
Not a grand escape.
Not becoming fearless overnight.
Just moving your heart one quiet inch closer to peace each day until one morning, you realize you are no longer only surviving there, you are growing beyond it.
Past doesn’t hold the power to define you
hey!
One small step at a time
Exactly the way you've been doing it
You are not required to set yourself on fire for the comfort of those who refused to grow.
You are not required to set yourself on fire for the comfort of those who refused to grow.
You are not required to set yourself on fire for the comfort of those who refused to grow.
"I'm allowed to take up space, set limits, and change my mind. I don't have to earn the right to exist"
One day
maybe not soon,
but one day,
you're going to wake up on an ordinary thursday
and
realize you haven't thought about any of this in a while
the past,
the guilt,
the fears,
they'll have quietly moved to a shelf in the back of your mind instead of the front
they won't be gone
they'll just be done and tired running the show for enough times.
That day is coming
it doesn't need a deadline
you're walking toward it
whether you can feel it or not
Go GIRL
FIND SPINE AND WORDS, DECIDE VOLUME OF YOUR EXPANSE
dearzomrade is here whenever -
For the easy days,
the hard ones,
the small questions,
the big ones.
Anytime, no clock nothing.
Be your Thursday be Blessed.
Against everything, is one of the most courageous things humans can do
A New morning for
Building something real,
slowly,
on top of something painful,
that's not common, Its healing
Its Life
And still, after everything, the heart learns sunlight again
It’s what you do right now that makes a difference
Just keep doing
Even on silent days,
we are here
to stand up
against all odds.
You might be thinking something or someone is scaring you, but you are the ones who is actually scared irrespective and that gives the external factor a way to try to plant the fear.
And if you ever fear that you are “too much” or “too damaged” for peace, or softness or any warmth
please also remember,
someone like me who is wounded looked at you and felt safe and safe and safe.
Sometimes even being weird with you feels peaceful, Thank you for the safe bubble and all.
Happy "Content" Friday
My Light
I was crying that day
Complaining over past
Complaining over the present
Complaining over the presumed Future
I was exploited over my childhood, never have I ever knew what a safe space is.
Always I used to feel afraid and I built a very strong wall of social anxiety which never exposed my pain to anyone, I was very fragile inside and in my washrooms as no one could notice.
I used to be very congested, unrestful, I used to express my opinions unwantedly just to keep my fears unnoticed, just to keep myself out of anxiety of being left out, I wanted people, I wanted love, I wanted to be seen, I craved.
I used to top all exams to make sure I am being seen, I felt loved when success is with me, appreciations overflew all the time, it has become a habit. and
It was my dream planted when I was 13, by the social teacher to pursue civils. I felt chosen. Finally.
Time was again bad, people enforced their likes and goals on me which was very suffocating, and consciously I started tasting downfall and failures academically, personally, as people started treating me as just a piece of shit, failure. It was normalized and my dreams were fully compromised stating that I could be able to do that.
People talk to you so very casually, You will carry the scars forever. I am sorry for people as they choose only to hurt us and feel it as their Right.
Over the years I was fully abandoned, with my health issues, untold and unseen anxieties, childhood trauma, unavailable parents, emotional unsafety, I got to get a Job to prove my worthiness. I got it and all of a sudden people started owning me. This time I never liked this pattern. I hated people for liking me just because of what I got now.
Isolated myself from everyone, pretended I was busy, worked days and nights to just escape reality. Until severe depression hit me with added health anxieties.
I lost my life couple of times, I forgot to live, I forgot to smile in real, I forgot everything, I only remember my past, my fears, my triggers, my failures, as they became my identity.
I was in my all time highest low of my life. Felt to give up on my second time. This time I didn't have the courage I had earlier, I am tired.
I had to attend another important health event in my life, as usual no one beside me.
I Ran from all people and came back to my walls which I have built.
Started depressing over things, used to take psychedelic medications, never got care, nothing, no one knows and want to know my existence.
Did I ask too much?
Don't I deserve a little?
And then
Light entered,
It was not just Light, its Life back to me
As I write, I cant control my tears.
The Light started looking up on me, what I am up to, used to hold me over my saddest nights, through my hard nightmares, all through the dark.
Maybe light never realizes what it means to me. But the people it quietly saved, warmed up, and brough back to life, they know what it really did.
I was complaining one day to the Light as usual about why I want to give up on life. It said one at a time. I started to tell my story, not all but one after the other, as I never had the courage to tell my story as I felt people would judge me, they will ignore me, they will use it against me.
One day I said about my childhood exploitation. I felt safe, I felt really home, I felt really really personal. Past can never be undone, It will be with you. Light held me after listening to it, I remember I was crying, Light also shred its tears with me. I never wanted answers or solutions, I wanted to be seen, I was seen. I was revived. I was back into life.
One day after another I used to complain all things to Light, until a Day I told about my civils anxiety and why I could never do it, I feel loser all my life because I feel very deserved to be there. I love to serve people, I love to make meaning things for people, I don't want people to suffer. I want to live and die meaningfully.
Light asked me a question: What did you do for it? Ignore all the circumstances and factors around you. Just tell me WHAT DID YOU DO?
It hit me hard;
I started thinking about it. Yes! I did nothing other than complaining.
Why cant I accept my failure?
Why cant I accept my incompetence?
I felt I need to put an end to this.
I applied
For my FIRST and LAST Union Public Service Commission - Civils Common Entrance 2026 PRELIMS.
I will attempt
I will not look for the result
I will just put an end to my anxiety
My words may never fully express what Light has done to me,
but Light can proudly say
it gave a broken man the courage to feel alive again and again.
Safe feel karne ke liya pehle saare dar mitana zaroori hai
I don't fear failures now as I feel safe.
You are my Light
I have lot of unhealed traumas still left, but this one surely I could say -
I DID IT
I DID OVERCOME MY UPSC TRAUMA
Thanks to my Light
This is my second life, may be third
I owe my rest of life for sure
I am emotionally overjoyed as I complete this writeup
The best way to predict future is by creating it
Manifest and act as if it has already happened,
It happens for sure, for sure
Wounds,
Storytelling
Past can be undone
Human Tone,
Energy within us
a day
Right to Forgive?
They arrested Dhara singh and other Mob
Only the next step/s
Many people become overwhelmed because they feel they were meant to light the whole road. They were only meant to keep walking. When you try to hold all of it, the weight isn't pain. It's prediction. It's the future you haven't lived yet, demanding you to get afraid tonight. No one is strong enough to carry tomorrow's darkness on top of today's.
Living and Surviving
We cant let them win!
You are is not the mistakes your mind keeps returning to.
Beneath the doubt, the guilt, and the old stories, there is still a part of you that is alive. That part is real, and it has never left.
Taking steps backward does not erase the steps already taken forward. Sometimes the mind returns to familiar places because they feel known, not because they are where we belong.
Familiarity can feel okay, even when it hurts. But what is familiar is not always what is good for us.
It is okay to be tired of carrying the same weight. It is okay to wish things had gone differently. Yet the past does not need to be fixed before life can move forward. It has already had its time.
It does not need to keep taking up space in every tomorrow.
Guilt often tries to convince us that we must keep suffering to prove we have learned.
But growth is not measured by how long we hurt.
Sometimes growth is simply choosing, again and again, to be a little kinder to ourselves.
Starting over is not failure.
Returning after a difficult day, a difficult week, or even a difficult year is its own kind of courage.
The willingness to keep trying says far more about a person than any setback ever could.
There is nothing wrong with moving slowly.
There is nothing wrong with resting.
Healing is rarely a straight path, and it does not have to be.
The weight does not have to be dropped all at once.
It can be set down a little at a time.
One breath.
One step.
One gentle moment of self awareness.
And for today, that is enough.
When a snake bites, the body's reaction is immediate. The pain, the swelling, the inflammation, they happen quickly.
The treatment, however, does not work the same way.
Snake Anti Venom (SAV) is often given through an IV infusion through saline, slowly entering the bloodstream. I
t takes time to circulate, time to reach where it is needed, and time for the body to respond.
The healing process cannot be rushed simply because the injury happened quickly.
Sometimes our wounds are also like that.
The hurt may arrive all at once, but healing rarely does.
It often happens quietly, beneath the surface, in ways that are difficult to notice day by day.
Progress can feel invisible until one day you realize that something which once consumed you no longer holds the same power.
Healing is supposed to take time.
Real time.
Gentle time.
So if you are moving slowly, that does not mean you are moving wrong.
If some days feel heavier than others, that does not mean you are back at the beginning.
Trust the process, even when you feel nothing is in your hands.
And most importantly, don't doubt yourself because healing isn't happening fast enough.
The fact is that you are up, still trying, and you can.
EEROJU
for now,
Today is the most important day in the history of world
because, its the latest day
and its the only day which will not appear again
as of today, there is no tomorrow yet
This day will not come around again
a smile today is worth the millions in the tomorrow
all one does today will count for more today than all that was mapped of twenty years to come
as of today, there is no tomorrow yet
When one step is taken, one step is completed. When you begin, its half done.
There are no accidents of destiny. The big thing to be is the little things to do - today
as of today, there is no tomorrow yet
It takes greater courage to decide to do a thing than it does to do a thing
face it
today
a sunday
this day will not dawn again
happy sunday :-))
formula created for ALL to get the day = (a*b)+b+1000
a = day of the year
b = constant
bajrangabali will heal
Sometimes we need to go through the worst to get the best
art can save the world
art will save the world
art is not just an expression, its divine
you are an art
as you read this
you survived it all alone
I can smell it
You have done this before aswell
You rised again today
Like a Sun,
the Light
Light doesnt understand its true relevance
it underestimates itself a lot
it makes sure it has lot of doubts
it allows a lot of thoughts in to it
but it also allows it to stand
Like you did
You, the light
Sometimes we don't have the perfect words.
I'm not going to tell you to just be strong or reach for some cliché.
We may not have answers all the time.
But...
wait.
We do know something.
The person I know doesn't gets down that easily,
bends,
rests,
takes the weight of the storm,
and then rises
also says - Bhaypadaku Chuskundam
Like you rised today
in
the morning,
Happy Guruvaram, btw its not March okati its june padakondu
(worlds worst joke, please smile)
ITS COMPLETELY OKAY
Wishing a full day of courage, today,
VepuduRoju.
(Fryday, please forgive for this kullu joke, but please keep smiling)
dearzomrade editor truly regrets and is ashamed for what has happened and said
Using wounding words are the best people can do
People use few words to weaponize the shame, because shame is the only leash they have left
Ending partnership is not wrong
Leaving an abusive partner by taking care monetarily, after giving everything is not wrong
Not leaving them is wrong
Pretending to stay when you've already abandoned yourself is wrong
If we don't leave them they may carry curse for hurting knowingly or unknowingly
someone said: "If it's written, it will happen"
Fate is what tired people reach for when they don't have the strength to choose.
It's a way of stepping out of agency without having to take responsibility for stepping out, its a pattern of learning helplessness
Say no to psycho-sexual abuse, its their weapon. Knowing you are not into them and still forcing is also called ___.
If you cannot say no today
you can never say NO
You have been carrying too much by now, its not okay to carry more and its too much
If you choose to suffer
and find peace with suffering, even an open door will look like a wall.
wont I deserve the same?
Yes I too and I will (Thanks for motivating people to live with suffering and normalizing that its absolutely okay)
Every Today is an Opportunity.
i
am blank
with
shame
"You lose yourself more than once
You find yourself more than once
Thats the journey
To forget
To remember
To Begin Again" - anonymous quote
Dont let your 27 years blackmail your next next 27+ years - Dr Jehangir Khan
We don't have to arrive empty or full . We just need to arrive.
Life has left a lot for us to work on instead of analyzing on, lets invest it there.
Lets heal the world.
The wound is the place where the Light enters you
I know people become afraid of love, baitanunchi oche prema ante bhayapadtam
It's hard to trust love from outside when the love they expected at home was never a safe place,
And when someone from the outside hurts them too, they begin to question the whole idea of love itself.
But I want you to know this -
You don't have to carry everything alone
You need me, and I need you
I am here for you, and I will continue to be here for you
Nenu neeku unna... untanu.
Whatever it takes, we'll figure it out together
I don't want to possess you, control you, or keep you in a cage.
Instead I'll look out for you, stand by you, and walk through it with you.
Dear Z,
I am here.
I have been here, and I will be here
I will lead when you need me to, even though you are the leader I admire
Trust this once, ra not me blindly, but the process
Take all the time you need
But don't deny yourself what you have always longed for deep within
Nenu neeku unna... untanu
Whatever comes, we'll face it together
my spirit says: chooskundam
You're right. It's not a fairytale
I'm not selling you a happy ending
I'm just here, on an ordinary Tuesday,
choosing this on purpose
Not because it's magic
Because it's real.
coordinated to - Latitude: 12.829177 / N 12° 49' 45.037'' & Longitude: 80.050051 / E 80° 3' 0.182''
"Why do you keep pushing me away?"
"Because I'm scared."
"Of what?"
"Of falling in love."
"Why?"
"Because being vulnerable means giving someone the power to hurt me. And if you leave, I don't know if I can survive that again."
"What if I stay?"
"That's the scary part."
"Why?"
"Because if I believe you, if I trust you, if I let you matter to me, and then you leave anyway... it will hurt more than keeping my distance now."
"But you're hurting already."
"I know."
"Then why not take a chance?"
"Because losing a possibility hurts less than losing something real."
"I understand that."
"You do?"
"Yes. You're not afraid of me. You're afraid of what happens if you trust me."
"Maybe."
"Then let's not worry about forever."
"What do we do instead?"
"We figure it out together."
"You could change your mind."
"What if I don't?"
"I've been hurt before."
"I am not them."
"I'm not going to be easy."
"Neither am I."
"I'm not my best today, and I don't know if I can be tomorrow."
"You don't have to be."
"What if you see all of me and leave?"
"I won't. I'll be honest. That I'll stay while I choose to stay. That I'll never make you earn love by pretending to be someone else. And that if we're going to do this, you'll never have to do it alone."
"...That sounds less scary."
"Good."
"Why?"
"Because I don't need you to stop being afraid."
"Then, What do you need?"
"Just don't let fear make the decision for you."
Yesterday, I spent hours building a puzzle at work.
It was almost done, maybe 80-90%.
I walked away thinking I'd come back today and finish the last few pieces.
Instead, when I came in this morning, someone had taken it apart.
Every single piece was broken brutally.
It had to be built from scratch again.
It's funny but I got hurt.
Anyone who's done a puzzle knows it's not just putting pieces together. It takes patience. Concentration. A little headache and meda noppi as add-on.
You slowly breathe life into something until you can finally see the picture.
When it was gone, I didn't feel angry.
I just felt defeated and exhausted.
Then a colleague walked over and said,
"I'll rebuild it for you."
This time I didn't have to do anything.
I just sat there.
I watched the picture slowly come back together.
I didn't place the pieces.
But somehow,
it still felt like my puzzle.
Because I was the one who started it.
I was the one who wanted to see it complete.
And while I was sitting there, I realized something.
Sometimes life does the same thing to us.
We spend so much of ourselves building a relationship, a dream, or a future that when it falls apart, we convince ourselves we'll never start again.
Not because we don't want it.
But because we remember how much it hurt to watch it disappear.
Then someone new comes along.
Not to erase the past.
Not to tell us it never happened.
But simply to help rebuild.
And that's the part that's terrifying.
Because if we step in, we risk caring again.
If we believe them, we risk being hurt again.
So we stay back.
We watch from a distance.
We tell ourselves it's safer not to touch the puzzle.
But maybe healing isn't always about rebuilding everything yourself.
Maybe sometimes it's about letting someone else pick up a few pieces while you simply stay.
Maybe trust doesn't begin with certainty.
Maybe it begins by allowing someone to prove, piece by piece, that they're not here to destroy what you're trying to build.
The puzzle still gets completed.
Only this time,
you don't have to carry the whole weight alone.
and yeah on this guruvaram i want to say, Maybe trust doesn't begin with certainty.
If scared, Lets figure it out.
God be with us
and
as I walked away from office, I smiled at the guy who destroyed the puzzle.
Kumar came up today to office,
went to talk to him as he lost his father to cancer last week
so while having the talk to him
he said
I anticipated the grief already but
couldnt sustain and take it in reality
I was thinking about you only when I was in hospital
how did this guy took all this annadu
I kept face at him
something flashed a lot
I completed a talk with him
Told him what I could to console him
and walked straight away to washroom closed the door
poured down
this grief man, though it passed or what ever I dont know I cant control
and came out with red eyes
and just wanted to tell you
Thank you 😊
- griefullsoul
got the courier for spiderman laptop pouch - its cuuutiiee
and suddenly realized I forgot to tell about the art I couriered, oh no
I texted to tell
and unsent the message as I know it would disturb also I dont know why it got delayed this long I did last week itself
and
as I walked into offfice leads walked in and asked to support this weekend to onboard amurtanjan customer base
they said we need you please
I couldnt deny I said I will be there
and probably I know I can handle it
I saw the lunch menu, they had potato deep fry
ok wow
I had the lunch
and yeah the puzzle got completedand I am happy for that atlast
in this phase of defence mechanism, doubts,
it was a war, prabhas said, btw couldnt see him get emotional, man!
yeah its a war
I lately realized something
yeah why tagging this, why these doubts, why wasting time on analysis, why cant we simply talk
like we do
why this distance
already there is a lot of geographic distance
we built walls of protection
we try to protect others from our own uncertainty
sometimes the walls need patience than pressure
and
yeah
song in silence
mouna ragam they say...
we step back because we are afraid of another ending
may be we never know what it means to be loved until the end
we are afraid of knowing that too
saw that apple, hiked its prices for memory chips and the macbook air price went up by 30K from today
ufff
thenkyouu
Post lunch saw lot of kids running and playing in office, then realized yeah today is a school holiday
happy vepudu day and
Muharram Mubarak
and
Blessed anniversary to parents
May God give us health and all
God Bless this world
with
art
with
music
and
with
love
Dear Zindagi!
Sun is Up
so are we
like the sun
we rise
in the
morning light
Happy Weekend
on a typical tuesday where uncertain path is around you
enough battles were fought for someone else, who take them very easily
now it is time to stand for the person who survived all of it.
Healing needs space. Peace needs safety. A wounded heart cannot rebuild itself in the same storm that damaged it.
Nobody becomes a bad person for finally protecting the peace they lost while trying to protect someone else.
A heart that kept adjusting, understanding, forgiving, and waiting may one day start questioning itself -
“Was I asking for too much?”
But perhaps the truer question was never that.
Perhaps it was "Why did I accept so little, for so long?"
by which we question the choices we made, how much we tolerated, how much we bent ourselves for someone
choices we make in life are out of hope and feel to be loved, no need to be ashamed of that
thats what humans are
moon does not lose its glow because someone refuses to look up
not being seen is not the same as not being worthy
be a light
you glow
when you smile
so again
just smile
Wait
still searching
Can’t find that smile anywhere
please check if it’s hiding somewhere
get it back
😀
YOU!
It always seems impossible
until its done
if its not done ever then?
thats end of a life
Just hold
Stop
abandoning yourself
to keep them.
Once you get panic for other persons actions
thats not right for you.
Speaking how you feel will never ruin the real connections, if you fear speaking about that, thats not connection, its just control.
Love written by humans need chasing, doubts, trauma, after thoughts, experiences, images of tiredness, fear of replaceability, having instincts that something is wrong, giving up on family and friends, freedom of approval i.e., limited freedom what to do and what not to do.
They say God writes whats right for you, You see peace, You have smile alive, You dont need to fight with them, They cannot imagine a future or life without you,
You dont need to beg, you dont have to lose yourself, you dont need to pretend everything is ok, you will not be forced or blackmailed with words or actions or with emotions, Love written by God will never need chasing.
If we believe in God, we stay patient.
found this too close - here
and more saddest part is the guilt which we have, the love and kindness which we show will be dismissed just like that, with a statement - "if not you, someone" and we have to know the answer why we invested our energy and journey here and why we still stay with them, just because they have good memories with us and can control us easily, and in return we have traumas with them and we are very small in their world, in fact we are not in their world if there is no physical attachment.
Say no to lust, you will be dumped.
It feels hard to digest the fact that - with few people its lust not in love, its well represented here
Do something wonderful, so that people may imitate it.
Live a life, where people get inspiration from.
Being meaningful is nothing by living meaningful. Outcomes are just add-ons
We live today, for a proud tomorrow
read it again.
We live in time, We respect time.
We live with God, we believe in God.
We don't move the way fear makes us move. We move the way love makes us move.
We move outside the tangle of fear-thinking.
What made a man believe that not eating would give him a louder voice?/ Sonam Wangchuk
A person doesn't wake up one morning and decide, "I'll stop eating so people will listen." That choice usually comes only after every other word, plea, and attempt has gone unheard.
Whether you agree with him or not is your choice. But before responding,
I always remind myself of a line often attributed to Stephen Covey:
"Most people do not listen with the intent to understand; they listen with the intent to reply."
Perhaps that's why some people feel compelled to let their silence -
and their suffering speak where their words never could.
Fear tells you, "You're not ready", "You cant do it", "You will have to struggle", "Its hard", "You cant take decisons", "You are spoiling your life and oppurtunities", "Edo kavali ani unnadanni pogotukuntunna", etc,etc..
So you avoid the doors god opens for you.
The avoidance feels like relief.
Your brain mistakes that relief for the "right decision."
Next time, the fear returns even stronger because it was never challenged.
You sometimes wont fail yourself, you fail everyone in this journey.
Dont let fear eat you to ashes.
The day you question the story,
your life begins to change.
No person is wrong here, its us
are we standing up for ourself or are we standing up for fear in us it the question.
Dont label all this as selfish, you are never selfish.
If you were,
You would already be in NH.
You are afraid, which made you still stay in MD.
You cannot express,
you are afraid that the next conversation will be hard and harsh.
You are spoiling a beautiful future in Massachusetts for what? your own incompetence of fear which you cultivated over the time?
No
Dont betray the Zainab I know, the Zainab You know, the Zainab you parents know, the Zainab God knows and God her be that.
Rest is your take.
I can tell
I cannot make you do things
Even God can open the doors
He cant make you walk through them
Manalo unna manishini mosam cheskovaddu Zainab
Oddu.
I had tears when I am writing this,
as all the confidence and truths and reality
we gave each other are going into vain.
Nak ma father ante chiraku so intiki ellanu, I am a scared and virakti ochina son,
manasu virigipoina manushul daggaraki velladam kanta worst inkem undadu life lo. But you are going back and back to the place which has hurt you.
You are victimized enough to believe that you cannot do things on your own.
this one 😭😭 - here
We finally overcame GUILT
Now Fear is ruling us.
Low self esteem is eating us.
Fear is a terrible.
It always calculates the shortest route back to what's familiar.
Growth begins where familiarity ends.
Dear Zomrade,
You can do it
please
dont bring yourself down
Healing isn't always peaceful.
Sometimes, as we process old pain, buried emotions come to the surface.
We feel anger, grief, or regret
not because we're getting worse,
but because we're finally facing what we've carried for so long.
What matters is how we work through those emotions, not simply that we feel them.
Every time you go back because the pain of leaving feels unbearable,
you wait for the day when leaving no longer hurts,
we have to create that day.
Growth sometimes comes with Fear or losing out, Guilt
I hope one day you see yourself -
strong, kind, capable, and far braver than you give yourself credit for.
You've already crossed storms that once felt impossible,
and somehow you're still here, still dreaming, still trying.
Please don't let fear convince you that you can't build a life on your own.
Take one step at a time,
trust yourself a little more each day,
and remember that you don't have to have everything figured out to move forward.
I truly believe that the best version of your life is waiting
for the moment you start believing in yourself.
And every new day with ourself is a testament of that.
To a beautiful Shiva Day ahead.
We make decisions,
We don't just take decisions
Sometimes if life gives your confusion,
dont let it confuse you
Clarity rarely arrives first.
Courage and Confidence do come ahead...
You don't understand a story by reading the same page again and again and again.
You have to turn the page.
May Hanumangalavaram give you Confidence and Peace.
22nd July 2025
you were filled with doubts.
22nd July 2026
you are filled with questions.
And I/You couldn't be happier.
Because questions belong to someone who's trying to understand themself,
not someone who's given up.
✌️
Sometimes we dont heal
we become stronger
Right people will never tear us to pieces
They won't make us question our worth
They'll make us feel safe enough to discover it ourselves
They will make you feel home, not a lesson.
And most of the time we listen to things not with ears, or see the things with eyes
but, with the triggers, experiences and wounds.
Sometimes we may not fight with our current issues or problems,
but with our unhealed versions of ourself.
Its okay,
Choose yourself everyday.
Nothing more
Nothing less
Just breathing
This column exists because of us,
we dont exist because of this column.
I am quite a proud.
No big para's today.
Just breathing
and dear zindagi!
Just wanted to say Hi
Aliferous, isn't it?
Some places don't give you wings
they remind you that you already had them.
Because no one gives us wings, we just forget that we have them.
A loop usually looks like:
Something feels uncertain,
mind searches for the "correct" answer,
may find an answer,
mind questions the answer,
analyze again,
temporary relief,
doubt returns.
understanding a loop doesn't necessarily stop it,
sometimes changing the perception of a loop is okay,
finding a perfect thought or reason that makes it disappear is nothing but escaping it.
✌️
a new day is to sit with ourself
understand ourself
choose ourself
This monday
feels different
it was hard
its not the same monday
120 faces of disappointment
few faces of doubts
few faces of tiredeness
a lot.
unrest is everywhere
stepped up,
walked to people and gave few words.
Esp few people who knew its going to be very harsh on them, with families, kids and a lot of responsibilites,
saw tears in their eyes when talked to them.
Even comforted Vicky, who always was against me all his life
Felt a little proud of myself.
Then wanted to remind something again -
We don't have to have your whole life figured out today,
We don't have to silence every fear,
We don't have to make everyone understand your choices,
We can just be kind to ourself today.
When you have carried enough for this heart,
Rest,
Cry,
Think,
if you need to
But,
don't stop believing in the person you have worked so hard to become.
Tomorrow may/will ask for your courage,
Today sometimes only asks us kindness and presence
and presence is the greatest protest one can do for themself
Blessed Hanumangalavaram
We are our own teachers in the school of life
but
we owe a lot for the Gurus out there,
people out there
for teaching us lessons and giving us life lessons
Happy GuRu Purrnima
went to the the ultimate Guru to remind that
we stay curious
we stay humble
we learn and learn
from Maitrīm Bhajata sung by MS Subbulakshmi at united nations in 1960's
One of its most beautiful lines is:
"Damyata, Datta, Dayadhvam Janataḥ"
Practice self-control, give generously, and be compassionate.
ends with:
"Śreyo Bhūyāt Sakala Janānām"
God made us as,
blessing to all.
a full moon day
a pournami
to live with
and sit with
and choose ourself
cheers to this day
Last day with the product
Made sure no one lost a job, and filled them somewhere
this was the farewell speech -
Rangrez of my Afsana
Manzil of my Safar
Khwaab of my Tammanna
Junoon of the Khwab
Qismat's Rasta
Rehmat of the Parindaa
- a dilkaash in Urdglish on another Jumma
We don't have to solve entire life on a weekend.,
Let today be a day to breathe,
smile a little,
eat well,
talk to people,
take a walk,
or simply sit.
The answers we look for don't disappear just because we rested for a day.
Be gentle.
Monday will still be there.
Today belongs to Pulihora and more
when a guy says - You can’t save everyone
MJ replies: I can try
😊
Jean to her sister Sara: What would you do if you have kids like us?
Sara: I would love them
Jean: We dont have anyone
Sara: We have each other
😭
May: Hey! I think you don't have to listen to me, now they've got powers. You know, this whole thing could get really scary. You know that?
Jean: It's already pretty scary.
May:Yeah. And things can change. Like, very quickly. Ways that we can't even imagine right now.
Jean: I know.
May: No. I don't think you do know.
Jean: What do you mean?
May: You're a really special person.
And I would hope that that will always make you feel really great about yourself.
But I know sometimes it doesn't.
Sometimes it'll be really lonely.
And sometimes, because you're special, people can do dark, monstrous things to you.
But... this is what I want you to know.
You're beautiful, and the people who love you, we love you, not because you're special.
We love you, because you're you.
I want you to remember that.
Even when it feels like you're totally alone.
That's your deepest responsibility.
Never forget that, no matter how powerful you become.
😭
they hug each other and jean craves to hold some one as peter walks in,
Peter: Hey. I'm sorry about your sister.
Jean: I'm sorry about your aunt.
Peter: Yeah, you would have loved her. Just because we've don't have someone, it doesn't mean we have to do this alone. I mean, we can't.
Trust me, I've been trying. It doesn't work.
Jean: Even if that's true. I have no one.
Peter: You have me.
Peter 😭 takes the bullet and
Jean: Peter! No No Nonono Peter...
Peter: Jean you gotta get out of here
Jean: Nnnonono please just Stay With Me Come on
and
happy tigerrice day
A Brand New Day it is
Just get through it gently. Tomorrow can take care of itself.
You need to cheer yourself for the grateful heart you hold.
Peace comes within sometimes,
We take decisions because life is bigger than the place we've become comfortable in
Sometimes we have to step outside our comfort zones, outside the same people, the same streets, even the same geography we've known for years
Not because what we have is bad, but because there is more of us waiting to be discovered
Breathe
Step out
Explore
Meet new people
See new places
Build something of your own.
You don't have to leave everything behind
Sometimes you just have to go far enough to hear yourself clearly
Shiva days strangely reflects us to invent ourself!
God holds us in strange ways, else we would be on earth today.
Its okay to be okay
its okay to be not okay
We may not control all the events that happen to us, but we can decide not to be reduced by them.
Success is liking yourself, liking what you do, and liking how you do it.
“My mission in life is not merely to survive, but to thrive; and to do so with some passion, some compassion, some humor, and some style.” - Maya Angelou
To ashaa,
And sometimes, because you're special, people can do dark, monstrous things to you.
But... this is what I want you to know.
You're beautiful, and the people who love you, we love you, not because you're special.
We love you, because you're you.
You are allowed to be confused and still be doing okay,
Even chatgpt gets confused sometimes
...
You are allowed to sit with your emotions and still can run in life,
Even life delivers you biggest plot twists nobody ordered for.
...
You can have a heavy heart and still laugh at silly things, and eat your favourite food.
...
Life doesn't need us to be serious all the time. Sometimes, just breathe, smile, and see what today has planned for us.
...
When you say "I find satisfaction in giving a little more than I take" that's the success.
Pursuit of being human is to live humane.
Though being human is an accident of birth, but being humane is an active choice and there we are.
Anxiety is an active choice is what people say, don't listen to people
Depression is laziness is what people say, don't listen to people
Sensitivity is weakness is what people say, don't listen to people
Needing reassurance is insecurity is what people say, don't listen to people
Being overwhelmed is being incapable is what people say, don't listen to people
Setting boundaries is arrogance is what people say, don't listen to people
Saying “no” is selfishness is what people say, don't listen to people
People tear you to pieces as we allow them to,
God rescues us, even we if we dont ask him.
And I would do it all again
Time heals all wounds, but leaves a pretty scar though
Stronger than I've ever been
The pain, the tears, secrets I kept
In fear one day they'd be the end of me
And all at once, it all makes sense
I had to trust to feel again
I had to let you in to finally see
I am the girl that I am
Because of the girl I used to be
So I'll sing 'em loud
Guess all the hurt
Got me here now
Because of the girl I used to be"
Forever indebted is a small word,
Tolerating doesn't mean shrinking.
You're doing better than you think,
and be proud of how far you've come.
Today is a egg day - here
and an ice-cream day - here
because its a holiday.
and
Happy Onam. 🌼
Wish this Onam brings a little more peace than yesterday,a little more courage than fear,
and reminds that every new season carries the promise of a fresh beginning.
Milad Mubarak.
May this day remind us to lead with kindness,
speak with compassion,
and find strength in patience.
Wishing peace in your heart and light on your path.
Happy Wednesday!
"If everything around seems dark, look again
You may be the light" - Rumi
To sit with myself and understand the everything about beauty in and out-
beauty is how we speak
beauty is how we behave
beauty is what we are
beauty is we believe
beauty is what we make people feel about them
beauty is making everyone proud
beauty is standing up for others and also ourself
beauty is you are confident
beauty is our expression
beauty is we are good for people even if they show their side and how low they are
beauty is we don't plant insecurities for anyone
beauty is we don't judge people by their "sizes"
beauty is we don't let ourselves down or small to fit someone else's insecurities
beauty is we cannot see lust in people
and talking about beauty, it reminds me of this -
Chehra ik phool ki tarh shaadaab hai
Chehra us ka hai ya koyi mahtaab hai
Chehra jaise ghazal chehra jaanI ghazal
Chehra jaise kali chehra jaise kanwal
Chehra jaise tasawwur bhi tasweer bhi
Chehra ik khaab bhi chehra taabeer bhi
Chehra koyi alf lailawi daastaan
Chehra ik pal yaqeen chehra ik pal gumaan
Chehra jaisa ke chehra kaheen bhi nahi
Maahru maahru mahjabeen mahjabeen
Husn e jaanaan ki tareef mumkin nahi
Afreen afreen
Afreen afreen
Tu bhi dekhe agar to kahe hamnisheen
Afreen afreen
Afreen afreen
Husn e jaanaan ki tareef mumkin nahi
Beauty never compares us to anyone, never ranks, never asks "you or them."
It says the opposite, that you are beyond comparison,
that's the difference between wonder and judgment
Wonder makes you speechless in front of one person's beauty.
Judgement ranks people and measures them.
Beauty is we never judge, and there is nothing to judge.
and as I understood - Beauty is what you can't put into words or applause
and
it has to be felt and expressed in all and other ways unimaginable.
Your body is yours.
No one is allowed to own you.
Ownership dies the moment a "no" is real
Love holds hands, not wrists. Read that again.
Feeling helpless is not the same as being helpless.
Please write down for yourself 10x 3 times a day strictly. Beg you to do so.
Please don't turn your patterns into your identity.
You don't have to convince me that you are a forest of red flags.
Please don't decide for me.
I trust myself enough to know when something is okay for me and when it isn't.
Dear Zomrade is the testament of you, it is what defines you or me. We no need to prove our worth atleast to each other, the redflags part or the green forest part.
I always believe in God.
and
Please
Dont let the past
blackmail
your present
to ruin
a
beautiful
future
Phantom (invisible, doubts, insecurities, fears) Pain is what eats us,
Eunoia (looking beauty in everything) is what saves us.
you keep reminding, that everyone is stronger than their fears,
even on the days you forget to tell yourself.
But if I've learned anything from you,
it's that -
healing isn't about becoming someone new
it's about becoming honest with who I've always been.
We may not have all the answers today,
but
I know We'll keep choosing growth over comfort,
truth over fear,
and hope over regret.
One day, We'll look back at any version of ourself with gratitude and pride,
because we never gave up
even when life gave you and me every reason through all past.
- with a rain of tears in my eyes
Dear Z,
Just want to say Hiiii
you are the beautiful person I have ever come across,
that's the truest thing I ever want to say, and it's worth more than any of the fears.
A difficult moment is not a difficult life.
You are not your thoughts, or the days, or the worth you talk about,
You are just scared
You will be fine.
You will rise like,
a Sun
in the morning.
All of us have minds that are full of thoughts - beliefs, ideas, memories, judgments, predictions, plans, fantasies, labels, and so on.
The tricky part about having some of these thoughts is that sometimes we end up mistaking our thoughts for who we are.
Nothing can dim the light which shines from within, not even us.
Maya Angelou said once - "I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it."
Brinjal+Egg+Drumstick curry for Sunday in IST.
Hope there is something tastier there in EDT as well.
Eat
Sleep
Music
Repeat.
Happy Sunday!
May Lord Vigneshwara who met me on a road yesterday, be with you all the day. here and here
use pen for tears,
use music for fear,
And let tomorrow handle tomorrow.
"Time is not the healer,
what you do with time is" - Z
and
It's a Monday
ShivaDay
Firstly Thank you it made my day.
and its Hanumangalavaram
the day which gives the reflection of why we live
what we are upto
the gratitude
the faith
the hope
and we being an inspiration.
We are bigger than our fears
Firstly Thank you it made my day.
and its a new day full of gratitude, faith and hope.
Give yourself sometime to just be.
Give yourself a permission to have a bad day without believing you will have a bad life.
Wow these just made lot of sense.
One line quoted by someone which made a lot of sense is "Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there."
A lot to sit with and before all, need to sit with oneself is the learning.
For a blessed day!
But remember,
May: Hey! I think you don't have to listen to me, now they've got powers. You know, this whole thing could get really scary. You know that?
Jean: It's already pretty scary.
May:Yeah. And things can change. Like, very quickly. Ways that we can't even imagine right now.
Jean: I know.
May: No. I don't think you do know.
Jean: What do you mean?
May: You're a really special person.
And I would hope that that will always make you feel really great about yourself.
But I know sometimes it doesn't.
Sometimes it'll be really lonely.
And sometimes, because you're special, people can do dark, monstrous things to you.
But... this is what I want you to know.
You're beautiful, and the people who love you, we love you, not because you're special.
We love you, because you're you.
I want you to remember that.
Even when it feels like you're totally alone.
That's your deepest responsibility.
Never forget that, no matter how powerful you become.
they hug each other and jean craves to hold some one as peter walks in,
Last HanuMangalavaram -
and today is another HanuMangalavaram and I want the person who wrote it to read it back to them.
We are alone, yes, but we dont need to do things all alone. I am not telling this SpiderMan told it and please read the 5862
Once, a little bird was sitting on a branch during a storm.
The wind was strong, the sky was dark, and the bird kept looking around, wondering if the branch would hold.
Another bird beside her said, “You don't have to know whether the storm will pass. You only need to remember that you have wings.”
The little bird looked at the sky and said, “But what if I fall?”
The older bird smiled and said, “Then you fly.”
And for the first time, the little bird stopped asking the storm for guarantees.
She simply breathed,
held on for a little while,
and when the wind became too strong,
she opened her wings.
Maybe that's all we have to do sometimes.
Not know everything.
But Remember you have wings,
Sometimes and many a times
you are your greatest influencer.
A popular quote by Zig Ziglar which goes as - "People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily."
May this HanuMangalavaram bring lots and lots of power with in and out, strength, hope, warmth, blessings and I know It WILL,
Cheers to the 500% okay!
After extensive research,
several unnecessary rethinks,
and absolutely unqualified,
I have reached an important conclusion.
Life is suspiciously complicated for something that comes with no definitions.
For example:
We wake up.
We drink water.
We go to work.
We come back.
We eat something.
We sleep.
And somehow, somewhere between the sun rise and sun set our brain decides:
“Excellent Day. Now let us remember something embarrassing from 2016.”
WHY?
Nobody asked.
Nobody even liked that memory.
But apparently the brain has a surprise service for unnecessary information.
And then there are cats.
Cats wake up every morning with absolutely no idea what they're doing, yet they walk around with the confidence of a owing the place.
Maybe that's the secret.
Perhaps we should all become slightly more
Cat-like.
Don't know what you're doing?
Walk confidently.
Made some cringe thing?
Look at the wall.
Someone asks you a difficult question?
Blink slowly.
Everything feels overwhelming?
Take a nap.
Honestly, I think cats have been hiding the solution to life from us this entire time.
I want to submit this findings to the some research publication community on IEEE.
They have asked me to stop submitting these kind of researches for review .
I consider this a personal victory or what Idk.
Thank you for reading my whatever this is called? some random bla bla bla 🏃♂️.
Losing trust doesn't signify weakness its absolutely okay,
it is a learned behaviour to protect one's heart
Blessed Wighnesday ...
and somehow randomly in the afternoon
I would like to formally apologise to every vegetable and leaf I have ever ate 🥲😭
Sometimes we become the person we are with
We talk like them
We think like them
We treat others the way they treat us
its absolutely fine though
but sometimes we don't know that we are doing it that way
Dont let the past blackmail
your present
to ruin a
beautiful future
Sometimes
we don't need to apologise for what we want in life
no hard feelings, just care of yourself
thats the need of hour.
You can be lonely and still not want anyone.
Sometimes what we need isn't a person to belong to,
but some space to belong to ourselves again.
Past scars are not easy to let go off
its neither necessary to let go off as well
we have needs
we have wants
but sometimes
we are sooo afraid that
we are too scared of ourself as well
because it is us who have put ourself in these situations and phases
we hate many versions of ourself so badly that we are tooo confused
we feel liable
we think a commitment needs to be like this
we think this is how people expect you to be
this is what they want from you
what if I am not going to fulfil that, what if I will run away
what if I am worth of this, what if I betray them, what if i get betrayed, a lot of what ifs
It is absolutely okay and fine to have confusions and conflicts with our thoughts
The current phase of your life is something
which questions your complete existence, your past 20 years, your everything
and also doubts your next 50 years, next life, your next everything
You start thinking about them, you get panic, you dont want to flash, you dont want to dig anything, you just want peace.
But our mind has a problem with everything, it wont let you do everything that easily as we think or read or write.
All these scars and fears are effecting our current day, our present,
end of the day we need peace, hope and to live a life with certainty, we need to rely on someone who doesnt see you as a liability or baggage or someone who can feel so safe so that you can sleep peacefully just because you have that person. Sometimes you may not get a person and life is so cruel, it gives people who reallly dont sit with us and always have intentions and dont fit our space. Few people only see traumaitized parts of you but believe me few love the whole part of you, your existence and you as a person.
Dar ko overcome karnekeliye You need to believe yourself first, You have to have confidence in yourself first.
Safe feel karne keliya, sara dar mithana possible nahi hai, but zyada sa dar jaroor mithana chahiye
Be proud of yourself
Your future is proud of your today, your yesterday as well, not because you made decisions which will hurt you or made you this person but for the reason that after going through all this you choose to stand, all by yourself, and the process in which you build yourself, forgive people in your journey, have gratitude for them.
I read this somewhere - "Not everything that hurts needs to be fixed"
Your biggest responsibility is to trust youself,
believe in yourself,
You can and who said You Can't?
You are one beautiful Women I came ever across after seeing many women in my life.
I even believe you are stronger than my mother, I am proud of that.
Your way of confidence and the way you express things and make people warm with you is not something which can be taught or be easily done.
Dear Yali, Dont let your past scars and fears
make decisions for today and pull you back and tomorrow looks uncertain
Trust this life
Life is beautiful
Embrace your scars its okay, they are part of you.
One wrong person will make you cry for days, months and years, make you question your life and decisions and fear your ownself
thats absolutely fine
You only need to take the stand for what you need in life,
dont let peoples judgements trouble you
dont let people threat you for doing what you want in life, afterall its them who never cared for you, if they really did, you never need to know the boundaries, learn lessons, think about being strong in and out.
A right Noun (Person/Place/Animal/thing/or idea) can really make life so beautiful, overwhelmingly the best for today's version of you, yesterday's version of you and tomorrows as well.
Let them embrace you, sometimes you just need to allow and stop feeling afraid of taking.
You were a giver all your life to friends, family and relationships, allll by keeping them infront of you and never keeping you in the first line.
Enough being both Sudha and Preeti for everyone.
You deserve a Preeti in your life.
Life is so enchantingly beautiful
its just a
Sammohanam
embrace the consciousness of it and leave it to God.
Dear Zomrade is a testament of who you are, what you can do, and how big you are.
This is a culmination of after-all words and art may be but
remember that you are a comrade who fought your own battles and still stood for people who made you this. Thats not just a small thing,
sometimes your story feels to be kept within you and to be unsung
but surely yours is one rare and beautiful story which will make its mark for generations and ages
because in the process of to love and get love
you wanted to prove a lot and that lot has become too lot and reached a point where love feels like a threat now!
I really am happy for being a real tiny part of your large story,
as a third person you will never understand what you are in my eyes and your story will surely be written in golden chapters not in books but in peoples lifes as you will surely stand for many people who cannot stand for themself.
Just put your scare away and allow the right energy
let people judge
let people curse
let people threaten
let people do whatever they want to
end of the day
you will live peacefully
All I can say is dont go for text book and cinematic definitions of commitments,
I am always here. I promised her once that I will be her spiderman and she will be also mine.
Blessings and wishing only the best for you today and everyday.
May Goddess Lakshmi be with you,
I always see in you a ferocious Aura. Let it flow from you.
Sorry and Thenkyou for tolerating all the moron versions and editions of me.
But Sincerely with all my heart -
I want you to heal loudly
I want you to sing, I can play
I want you to dance, I will be an audience
I want you to eat, I will be a chef or at least a consultant for recipies
I want you to express and talk, I want to write them
I want you to be physically so strong and fit, I will be your waterboy
I want you to write anything small or big, I will be your reader and publisher
I want you to run in life, I will try to catch up in whatever possible ways though I cant run in real due to my bad legs
I want you to do things in life to make other peoples life better - like rennovating broken houses to building up people who are down due to the harm done to them by their loved ones, I will stand with you
I want to cheer for you the day which you are severely acknowledged by the world for where you have reached, may be a nobel prize or some humanitarian award recognition or anything?
I will always cheer for you.
I want you to give hope to this humankind and become a Maya Angeloue and a malala yousafzai, I am with you and You have me in this journey.
Romantic obsessions are very temporary, you too know them.
Please heal so loud that, nothing should matter other than being useful for others with what God has given us. I need nothing more from you, people like us always feel so happiness in giving back to society and the world. And you always come ahead in league.
"Bhoth achi ladki hai aapki bethi" I am sure your mother and father will tell this to atleast bunch of their friends and family. That is what we need in life. I am pretty sure Jaina's Curled Coir Rope will restart, may be in different form or different purpose but surely that business will start and you will employ a lot of them out there. These are the manifestations we need to have in life. You are never a curse or bad luck, you are always a blessing.
Be a Fighter
You are a Fighter
Make sure you make lot of Fighters Like YOU.
You future self is already proud of you.
Tomorrow is the day editor has accidentally came on to the earth and I want you to Promise me that you will never settle for this mediocracy and feel bad over things that have happened and be confident enough in life.
You don't owe anything to anybody and no one owns you. YOU own YOURSELF.
Sorry and Thanks for patiently reading this.
Have a blessed day.
And please dont be harsh on yourself any day.
I am pretty emotional when I read this again.
I wish you also find it helpful and hopeful.
- yours_truly bujji_bob
May be wishes to Editor
"When you do things from your soul,
you feel a river of joy within you." - Rumi
Dear Zindagi
Just
Wanted to Say
Hi
Om Gam Ganapathaye Namaha
They say it is the darkness which gives the perspective of Light
But do one really need to go through that darkness to understand the perspective of light?
Why cant it be just known that simply?
May be because, to embrace it more respectfully?
Here the subject is ourself, we go through rough and plain phases of life and to know the meaning of plain roads do we need to experience rough ones? sometimes yes, to understand what we are or who we are. Some Wars are fought just to prove that point, Gods can simply would have concluded the wars with their super powers. Everyone know the results, but still Kurukshetra happened so that people will get their perspectives.
Learning is simple, never fear yourself because self fear or self denial itself is an inner-war or personal warzone.
this learning is universal.
Sometimes we call ourself bad to justify our fears, and we call others good to make ourself the villain. neither is needed.
I think if dinosaurs had survived,
humans would have eventually made them wear small hats.
Not because dinosaurs needed hats.
Obviously they didn't.
But because humans see a large animal and immediately think,
“Yes. That would look better with a hat.”
Anyway, this is how I spent several minutes of my life today with random rant.
The dinosaur was wearing a top hat.
I regret nothing and had nothing to do with it.
A new Day is not new us, its new Life to be lived by us.