I started telling myself

a lot

something which I did consistently is - I CAN'T to I CAN

Phantom Pain is what eats us, 

Eunoia is what saves us.

I keep reminding, that everyone is stronger than their fears, 

even on the days I forget to tell myself. 

But if I've learned anything, 

it's that -

healing isn't about becoming someone new

it's about becoming honest with who I've always been. 

I may not have all the answers today,

but I know I'll keep choosing growth over comfort, 

truth over fear, 

and hope over regret. 

One day, I'll look back at any version of myself with gratitude and pride, 

because he never gave up

even when life gave him every reason to.

- with a rain of tears in my eyes and 

a real rain surrounding me,

✌️