(13-06-2026) Sorry, I had coffee today!😐
Woke up lazy in the morning
Throat is not okay
Wanted to drink something hot, drank hot water with some ginger
As kids we expect to express ourself to parents,
we tell our problems
we express our interests
we talk to them
we tell about something is wrong happening
we tell them only once
they were not available for us then and ever
and
then we wont tell them again not only to them
but anyone
Fear
Bhayam and many more
until the kid in me found a safe resort to
express,
talk,
smile,
live,
sing,
blabber,
complaint,
shout
raise voice
dump insecurities
and
to own my mistakes,
be responsible with myself,
understand what I did or said,
feel ashamed,
express the apology
and
then
work on them
because, as people we just say and not really work on them
and while reading a book and had my lunch
wanted to have coffee
I pulled out a sachet of coffee, I had 2 of them - one in memory box and other in a travel bag. Grabbed the one from bag and
Yes I did
I pulled out a glass of some water and mixed some coffee powder to make a concentrate, now its time to drink, so
I grabbed myself in my hand
I folded myself, to a messy shape like to dump in a trash
no,
unfolded
and
Coffee is usually mixed with spoon or stirrer
but
here
it was a brush
size - 8
to apply coffee on myself
drank the coffee concentrate in two layers
I was wet
I had severe tears unknowingly
which were also mixed on the messy unfolded me
so the coffee is now salty, haha I hate sugar in coffee
I dried myself
wiped my tears
grabbed a pen to write on me
wrote what i wanted
it was very cliche, but I mean it
the coffee was well applied and
it was even heated with fire to keep intact edges
decorated myself with some rose petals
why not a rose for apology?
Rose is a testament of expression
Who am I?
I am a
Thenkyou,
and
I am a
Sorry.
as the coffee, brush, and me were hugging each other
I drank the Coffee as an expression to paint on me and not as a drink
ufff
instead of me drinking the coffee,
my bedsheet also had to sip it
Coffee smells really good, like it did today on me
between
had an ice cream to complete today, Saturday. Have a Sugary Saturday!
I don't want the reader to text me off compulsion,
they need time
its absolutely their time
I have to respect it
But I wanted to mean -
I am really Sorry
,
I am sorry
I am not that toxic as you think,
I may have imposed my fear on you
I admit my mistakes
but not to demean your intentions or your povs or you
Please dont get scared of me
I have no,ne
dearzomrade editor truly regrets and is ashamed for what has happened and said
Learning: Owning it is the beginning of repair, not the completion of it